When We Forget Who God Is

I've had a really rough weekend... not to sound whiny or anything, but my family has been putting me through the ringer lately and this morning I was in pain. This in turn led me to feeling rather sorry for myself. As I drove to church alone... I felt disrespected, unappreciated, and misunderstood nearly the entire 10 minute drive to service, then I suddenly had an awakening.. It suddenly hit me that I'd forgotten who God is. I then realized that I do this a lot.

What do I mean? It's so simple, yet so HUGE at the same time. God created everything... the Universe and everything in it. Space and matter... all life, all things for His glory... including me and you. He can handle our stuff. He can handle my stuff. I went from feeling so alone and pitiful to feeling an amazing peace... within minutes the peace turned to joy. My spirit did a complete 180 and I smiled as I entered the church. Considering only minutes before I blurted out at the top of my lungs... "I give up Lord... I can't do this anymore!". That is the power of God. He suddenly reminded me of all the gifts He'd given me... even within just the last week.

If I really trust God is who He says he is... I really don't need to wallow in despair. I've been struggling with a very personal family issue now for years and He has yet to deliver me from those chains, but He's never abandoned me. He's sent AMAZING friends my way who've filled my life with laughter, companionship, and understanding. I'm overwhelmed with joy when I sit back and realize how He's blessed me as I give Him all the credit for EVERYTHING I have and all that I am. I've grown so much over the last few years, I'm more confident, happier, more outgoing and just a few years ago I learned out to hug a stranger without fear. This is God. This is Him with me, growing me, loving me. Knowing He's in everything... meaning He's in ALL my business, means He does have His hands on my biggest prayer request. He hears me. He's been hearing me, but for whatever reason I have to wait... I hear you Lord... I do.

So, I get it... today. I might forget tomorrow... but I get it today! God is good and He spoke to me today. I honestly felt Him awaken my spirit. This is how God spoke to me. He touched my soul and suddenly I had hope again. What's more... this burden isn't mine... it's His. As ALL things belong to Him. He'll carry me just as He always has and I will continue to rest in His arms.